In Awe

Lord God,

I bless you and I praise you. There is none like you. This I can say with complete certainty. You never fail, your ways are faultless and your words are flawless. You're mighty, powerful, ubiquitous, and all knowing. And yet, you care for me and what I care about, what I'm concerned about. Let me care about others in that way also. I want to be more of who you want me to be and less of who I am. Speak to me. Teach me. Guide me. And lead me. I am listening LORD.

Today...

Today I am thankful for the gift of today. However, I must admit that I have struggled with being focused for most of the day. I wrestled with distractions and how to not let them get the best of me so that I could use every moment of this day wisely and not waste any of it. As I glance at the clock I realize that I lost this battle today. But I won’t let it stop me from trying to win it tomorrow. And hey, there are still many moments left in the day, so I’m not out yet.

Today, I am also thankful for my heavenly father who continues to not give up on me. He continues to invest His time and energy into me, teaching me, guiding me, and encouraging me to go on, to choose and to seek to be better and to be more than I was yesterday. Heck, for that matter, this morning even. Right now He is teaching me some very valuable lessons on how to be strong in the midst of weakness. He is teaching me how to fight when all I want to do is run! He is teaching me how to be joyful in the midst of heartache. He is teaching me how to be accepted in the midst of disapproval and rejection. He is teaching me how to let go and show grace even as I ask Him, “Why?” and “Where is grace for me?”. He is teaching me that I am not always right, even though that is what I prefer to think. He is teaching me that often I just need to listen and not respond. He is teaching me that I need not say what is on my tongue or on my mind. He is teaching me to see people, to truly see them. He reminds me that everyone has an untold story. He is teaching me to step back so that others might step up. He is teaching me to slow down in the midst of the race of my life. He is teaching me to be content and focused on my own race. He reminds me that I was created for a unique purpose that could not be fulfilled by anyone else. He is teaching me to be courageous in the midst of my fear. He is teaching me to trust in the midst of my doubts. He is teaching me that He is always near even when I can’t feel Him. He is teaching me to listen in the midst of all the noise. He teaches me how to recognize His voice. He is teaching me how to think, listen and speak according to His heart. He is teaching me that things are seldom as they seem and that I should be most interested in those things I cannot see rather than what I can see. He is teaching me that everything about me is valuable to Him. He is concerned about it all. All of it, from what I think about my hair to sending my child off to college this fall. I never have to walk alone, He is near and He is here!

As you can see, I am being presented with many lessons so that I may glean wisdom. And there are many more that I did not record here that I am being taught as well. My father is an amazing teacher and I am so blessed to be His child and pupil. Praise be to our God!

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